Eoulapa woke up.
Eoulapa (faintly): "What was that? A dream imbued with sadness... Yet I can't recollect it... Yet it's wreaking havoc in my heart as if I was on a boat, in a storm..."
Eoulapa proceeded to pick up the phone by his side. Aufisü had messaged him.
Aufisü had written: "Hey Eoulapa, you remember Andöngwonìet ('not misunderstood', formally Āndö̠ngwonìe̋t)? We just had a video call live on Instagram. He said he had meant it as a joke. He didn't mean in. But I guess you're just gonna carry on..."
Eoulapa's eyes widened slightly, the content of the dream flashing across his mind. Craving to preserve the dream, started jittering on his phone: "Dude I just had a dream where he came back to visit us, I stumbled upon him somewhere, I initially wanted to avert him, but he stopped me. Then... we were in a room that had the interiors of a well-lit mall. The walls were adorned with verdant artificial plants and leaves... That's all I can recall. But it's impactful. It's stirring feelings of loss and regret in me... Goodness."
Below the sent message emerged a "Read" label, as Aufisü replied: "You were with your friends yesterday, that must have induced your dream. I know you've felt kind of distressed at this, and I know that you rue when you decided to sever connections, but maybe it's not too late right?"
Eoulapa let out a sigh: "It is too late. And I prefer letting the past stay in the past. I don't want to instigate any of my cynicism or embarrassment, especially after forgoing a great friend..."
Aufisü: "Man tell me why you let go in the first place. I remember that you guys had still been intimate, until you suddenly started estranging him right before the end of F3."
Eoulapa: "Because I thought he hurt me. Because I was inundated by emotions. Well, indeed his words left a lasting trauma still present in me, it boils down to my own fault... I thought that concealing my visage would help me, yet here I am, wounded by and responsible for my own choice. But I've always thought that failures and blunders like this one make life actual life. If the mouse never gets caught in the trap, it cannot avoid one. I've learnt lessons from this. And, I've derived a lot of my introspective pieces from this."
Aufisü: "Of course 'mistakes make us grow', but Andöngwonìet aside, you're still held back by your own paranoia, no? You don't even wanna eat with us because of your insecurities."
Eoulapa: "That I have spoken about a lot of times."
Aufisü: "Okok. Find me later then, because I'm about to have lunch."
Eoulapa: "Bye."
It was 11am.
~Written 28/10/23 18:31 at home.